it’s 11th august (Friday) today …
anxious moments …awaiting results .. 
and whooopyy …
we all managed to get good marks this time ..
in the evening twilight i sat on the terrace in solitude ..
thinking about my future …
my marks …
as usual my thoughts strayed constantly out of my mood …
and was humming Euphoria’s latest song “mehfuz” to accompany my loneliness .. feel the lyrics …
Zindagi Hai dhuan to kya
Bujh gayi har subah to kya
Rootha mujhse khuda to kya
Ho gaye hum juda to kya
Faasle they hazaaron darmiyan,
Waqt ke they hazaaron imtehaan
Fir bhi ban ke nishaan,
Tere honthon ke kisi kone mein Hansi ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Teri aankhon ke chipe dard mein Aansoo ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Bewajah har wajah to kya
Begunahii hai gunaah to kya
Beasar hai dua to kya
Ho gaye hum juda to kya
Raaz gehre hazaron bepanah
Lafz thehare hazaaron bejubaan
Fir bhi ban ke nishaan Tere honthe ke kisi kone mein Hansi ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Tere kesu ke mude pannon meinYaadon ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Mehfuz hoon Teri aankhon mein
Mehfuz hoonTeri yaadon mein
Mehfuz hoonTeri baaton mein
Mehfuz hoonTere baalon mein
Mehfuz hoon
Faasle the hazaron darmiyaan
Waqt ki thi hazaron aandhiyan
Fir bhi ban ke nishaan
Tere honthon ke kisi kone mein Hansi ke tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Tere kaandhe ke chipe til meinVaadon ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
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“There was a vague sort of charm and timelessness I felt as i sat here , lost in thoughts …”
hopefully this timelessness does not remain forever \,,/
we had decided a mini hop tonight ..
and the account of which you all are going to read now …
the arrangements had to be made in the room ..
pc was ready ..
so was the songs and videos in GB’s ..
and importantly the speakers ….which mattered us the most ..
all was set ..
we went down to shiv-ganga ..
Achal had brought his car. Off we went in his vehicle down the GEC slope ..I had to , in a damned way sit in the rear of the car ..it was jumping since i was just above wheels ..
It was drizzling outside and cool breeze was hitting us ..
Aditya,Rajesh and Audi also entered at the same time ..
they were sitting on nearby table ..
We were watching FTV …
” Cheers to all who cleared papers …” we shouted …
This was specially for Abhijeet who managed to clear all his backs of fifth sem , then for Nagraj who also managed to clear all the papers he answered well , then undoubtedly and
inevitably i cannot forget this DAREDEVIL of GEC ..achal , he too managed to clear all his backs of 5th sem and fresh ones ..
By now Naveen(Nonya) joined us … he wanted to go home early but we didn’t allow him to go ..
It was nearly an hour before we left this place ..
this time while going back too ,i had to occupy the rear of the car …
a bumpy ride again … uh -huh ..
Reached the GEC campus and outside the hostel ..
The game just began as we set foot on the campus ..
Soon we were in our room ..
it was exactly 12.12 am , and music started blaring out of our room ..
We had brought Abhi’s speakers in our room ..
4000 watts of raw and pulsating power of absolute rock music blasting out of the speakers ..
loud and sonorous ….
we were testing our ear’s high decibel intensity withstanding capability …
and the old walls of our rooms were also withstanding this blast ..
Our heart did not skip even a single beat .. we could feel and hear every beat ..
such was the situation here ..
We eulogised every rock star’s dream ..
“Hold up… hold on… don’t be scared
You’ll never change what’s been and gone
May your smile… Shine on… Don’t be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.
‘coz all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you’ll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up… Come on… why you scared
You’ll never change what been and gone “
The rock music went on ..non stop ..
Sometime later Aditya and Rajesh too joined in for the show ..
Even Siddharth and Shridhar joined in …
The numbers were just flowing in as per requests …
Nothing else matters, Du Hast, I stand Alone, Smack my Bitch up, Sepultura, Metallica, Testament, System of a Down , Marylin Manson and much more queued up to make us go wild ..
The real passion of having a rock night came true today …
By now many were high on their heels now …
… and the kick got stronger and stronger ..
Nagraj and Abhi were seeping in dry and full …
Achal was in his usual mood of full masti ..
Naveen was swaying here and there aand laughing at me …
and i was teasing him loudly .. ” nonya ” ..
Many of them were now tight …
who were in their senses earlier ,
And when Rajesh and adi came .. they gave to Nagraj saying it was water …
but he couldn’t even recognise the big thick bottle ‘coz he was obviously not in his senses ..
and he drank it like anyone would drink water ..
one characteristic of vodka , i heard from my friends is that when it is going in we can feel it’s extreme dryness going down the throat ..
and that is what Nagraj felt as he drank …
Nonya was watching us and laying down till now .. he also got up to join the dance ..
Almost everyone was enjoying this thunder of rock music here ..
our ears and head were standing the test of this extravaganza ..
I was the only person in his full senses and capabilities here ..others were atleast a bit high ..
But one passsion which I shared with others was ..
THE ROCK MUSIC IN IT’S ABSLOUTE FORM …
PCC GS — Rahul ,
PCC UR — Rishikesh, our close friends also visited here ..
chetan(bouncer hehe 
) and omkar too chipped in for some masti ..
The floor was completely occupied by now ..
head banging in complete tandem….
the hooplah here was enough to keep your head banging for hours ..
in tune or without tune …
but we made sure the whole grey matter in was churned in every direction ..up and down ..left and right ..
AGONY, DESPAIR,
ENDLESS PAIN ,
ECSTASY,
HAPPINESS,
SADNESS,
DESIRE ,
ANGER ….
all these emotional byproducts were getting mixed , intertwined, churned, immersed , soaked …..
with the beats and rock music flowing outta here ..
you name it … it was all felt here on this night today ..
the pain, misery i felt here ..
I was dragged by the force of some inner tide ….
I wonder why ???
for once i thought this world is not what it seems to be …
it is much more ..
and only when we experience every fall … shall we rise …
sorry for this philosophical note in between … i couldn’t stop myself ..
our senses were appealed in every tune that was played …
sometimes inbetween trance followed to slow the head banging ..
We were living the other side of student life what we even share with the IIT’s and IIM”s …
All limits, all barriers, all damned fucking defenses had to be broken … but the right chord was never striked upon ..
instead it was all sheer frustration of engineering that was flowing out as lava …
Wild locks of hair on my head ..
sometimes followed the movement of my head ..
sometimes they just did their own thing ..
abhi and rajesh had enough wild locks to accompany me ..
We were free radicals tonight .. excited free atoms ..wandering off the orbit ..
just everybody was swaying along in their own uncaring , damned way ..
With only one hop last year and uncertanity this year too ..
we were craving for a hop ..
our seniors enjoyed a hop every week ..
the ENGICO tradition is slowly fading away ..
so sad ..
common guys and gals let’s not let it ground upon ..
and we are going to pass out this year ..
atleast let’s make the last year of engineering memorable friends ..
we shall regret this forever if not …
“Stand up, be bold , take the responsibility on your shoulders … “
well let me not start a speech here .. shall cut short ..it’s for you to decide anyway …
save me …
i dont fag .. nor am i into intoxication in any form ..
PURE , UNDILUTED MUSIC is my addiction ….that’s it ..
Today the rebellion was against our body and mind ..
let it experience every pain ..
physical, metaphysical and mental ..
This was one of the freakest possible rock night i witnessed here ..
If you all are feeling jealous … i can’t help ..
you must ask for it or snatch the oppurtunity away ..
it’s your own right i feel …
the blast was still in full swing ..
it went on till 4.15 am in the morning ..
hours of desperation drove enough sleep in our eyes ..
Abhi and myself walked to my room to catch a nap ,,
and i’ll tell you something ,,abhi would shout at me for saying this but let me let it out here ,,
he was so scared to walk alone ,,
actually our hostel does not have any lights ,, and it’s absolutely pitch dark here ,,
he was walking in front of me ,, and then he said to me ” Blair Witch is waiting for me ”
i couldn’t stop laughing at him ,,
hmmm
let me explain ,, we watched the movie ” THE BLAIR WITCH PROJECT ” in these vacations and some of the scary scenes from this movie remain etched in his memory ,,,
hence the scare ,, hehe haha haaaaa ,,,
We just slept wherever we found an empty place ..
My thoughts were playing spoilsport again …
i couldn’t sleep for a long time …
i dont know when i slept .. just that we got up in the morning around 11 am ..
then in the traditional ENGICO way went to back zopdi and had limbu soda …
Eagerly awaiting the next such experience …
