… the vagaries …

 

After what seems thousands of ages, my inner conscience spoke to my thoughts, and my thoughts dawned upon to let go the liberal rays of feelings out …

this time not in a single flow .. not bound by paragraphs .. not fenced by human mindstreets .. yet noble enough to express ..

on very rare occasions does the mind wander relentlessly and yet stop for few nothings .. .. and yet wander off again .. and on and on in a chivalrous manner ..

Some of you may not understand yet appreciate, a few may appreciate but not understand, to a few it may seem unworthy, to a few it may seem as their own thoughts ..

welcoming each one to interpret as you wish ..

your own thoughts are appreciated too, these revelations will keep on adding .. thank you.

… The Vagaries …

 

the way in which a droplet of rain water is

welcomed by ocean in the form of wavelets and ripples ..

 

the way in which a newly born baby is embraced by its mother

whose selfless love is the first trust it learns ..

 

the way a women seems lovely in the enchanted mood

when she sees the devoted look in his eyes ..

 

the way a dog ungrudgingly accepts

however good or bad his master is ..

 

the way the moon and twinkling stars and lamps

embrace the darnkess as it comes and not give up ..

 

the humble elations of a calf after

ending tireless search for its mother ..

 

the enthusiastic mood of chirping ones in nest

when a mother returns to feed after long search ..

 

the eagerness of the waves of ocean

to sway back and forth the shores ..

 

the persevering nature of the lotus

to show beauty even in the defile waters ..

 

the richness of the color in flowers

showing their own varied emotions ..

 

the unweary patience with which the wind

restlessly travels from one place to another ..

 

the modest nature of skies who allows

the birds to feel the freedom and openness ..

 

the interpenetrating nature of romance

whose realization weakens the human defences

 

the gentleness of a breeze with which

it cuts across the leaflets and petals ..

 

the way a mind behaves like the dark side of the moon

whose nature is known to itself and itself only ..

 

the exaltation in the feelings and emotions

which an unrealistic dream brings to life ..

 

COUNTRY FIRST OR SELF ?

A soul stirring incident which I wanted to share with you all .. 

I am not very sure if this is the exact conversation that took place, I tried to search on google but couldn’t find any excerpts on this. I am just putting across what I remember of this story .. 

The World Parliament of Religions, Chicago, Sept 11, 1893. 

Swami Vivekananda was in Chicago for his ever famous speech on Spirituality on this day. 

An incident took place during his visit .. 

He hadn’t eaten since long time , and because he was pure vegetarian made it more difficult to find a good place to eat. He was strolling on the sideways and sat at a place. A beggar sitting nearby noticed the saintly man and smiled at him. After sometime the beggar noticed that Swami was in deep thought & seemed troubled. Out of courtesy the beggar went near him and asked Swami

Beggar : “ Why do you look confused ? What are you thinking ? “

Swami : “ I haven’t eaten properly since 2-3 days. I am a pure vegetarian and all I get to see is meat for every course .. I am searching for a place where I can be content eating some good food”

 The beggar was taken aback and he replied back to Swami

Beggar : “ Kindly be seated here , Saintly man , I’ll be back in sometime ..”

 The beggar gathered whatever money he had in his cap and sprinted off , in few moments he was not in sight.

 He came back with fresh fruits , vegetables & other eatables ,gave it to Swami and said “ Saintly man, when you go back to India, don’t ever tell your people that you didn’t get to eat , in AMERICA..”

 What’s in your case ?

COUNTRY FIRST OR SELF ??

 

POEM BY PRADOSH KAMAT : 26/11 MUMBAI …

My friend Pradosh Kamat, who stays in Mumbai has written a  poem himself, I liked it and bet you’all will  …

26/11 MUMBAI
The city of pride has been rocked again,
The attack so brutal,people are shocked again.
 
Three days of havoc, and it rained all bullets,
Innocence being targeted,we lost our brave cadets.
 
One question makes the round, how long will it go on,
Is it really gonna end , or is it here to stay on.
 
Enough is enough , is what the people have to say,
Lets fight it together , and make our own peaceful way  ∞ ∞ ∞ ∞

Thanks Pradosh, appreciate the way you have put the incident in words … 

Way to go poet

 

Is baar nahin … Prasoon Joshi …

Lyricist Prasoon Joshi’s poem that he wrote after the Mumbai terror attacks . Says the ad guru and film lyricist, “I believe it should reach as many people as possible because it is our collective pain and voice”.

Read it below :

 

 

 

Is baar nahin

Is baar jab woh choti si bachchi mere paas apni kharonch le kar aayegi
Main usey phoo phoo kar nahin behlaoonga
Panapney doonga uski tees ko
Is baar nahin(This time when that little girl comes to me with her bruises, I will not blow gently at her wound, nor distract her, I will let her pain grow.

 

Not this time.)

Is baar jab main chehron par dard likha dekhoonga
Nahin gaoonga geet peeda bhula dene wale

 

Dard ko risney doonga,utarney doonga andar gehrey
Is baar nahin

(This time when I see pain on faces
I will not sing the song that eases pain
I will let the pain seep in, deep�.
Not this time.)

Is baar main na marham lagaoonga
Na hi uthaoonga rui ke phahey
Aur na hi kahoonga ki tum aankein band karlo,gardan udhar kar lo main dawa lagata hoon
Dekhney doonga sabko hum sabko khuley nangey ghaav
Is baar nahin(This time I won’t apply any balm
Nor will I ask you to shut your eyes
and turn your head
While I gingerly apply medicine
I will let everyone see the open, naked wounds�

 

Not this time.)

Is baar jab uljhaney dekhoonga,chatpatahat dekhoonga
Nahin daudoonga uljhee door lapetney
Uljhaney doonga jab tak ulajh sake
Is baar nahin(This time when I see difficulty, uneasiness
I will not run to solve the problems
I will let them become complicated�

 

Not this time.)

Nahin karoonga phir se ek nayee shuruaat
Nahin banoonga misaal ek karmyogi ki
Nahin aaney doonga zindagi ko aasani se patri par
Utarney doonga usey keechad main,tedhey medhey raston pe
Nahin sookhney doonga deewaron par laga khoon
Halka nahin padney doonga uska rang
Is baar nahin banney doonga usey itna laachaar

 

Ki paan ki peek aur khoon ka fark hi khatm ho jaye
Is baar nahin

(This time I won’t pick up my tools as a matter of duty
I will not make a new beginning
Nor will I stand as an example of one dedicated to my job
I will not let life easily return to normalcy
I will let it descend into muck, on the twisting paths
I will not let the blood on the walls dry out
Nor will I let its colour fade away
This time I won’t let it become so helpless
That you can’t tell blood from paan-spit

Not this time.)

Is baar ghawon ko dekhna hai
Gaur se
Thoda  lambe  wakt  tak
Kuch  faisley
Aur uskey baad hausley

 

Kahin toh shuruat karni hi hogi
Is baar yahi tay kiya hai

(This time the wounds need to be watched
Carefully
For a long time
Some decisions are needed
And then some brave moves to be made
We have to begin somewhere�

This time this is what I have resolved)

… Prasoon Joshi

 

MUMBAI BLEEDS, BEARING THE BRUNT OF INDIA’S 9/11 FALLOUT…

“We’ve all , we’ve all been broken ..

Shattered, left mute with regrets unspoken

We’ve all loved and lost 

Been forsaken, repented our deepest trust.

We’ve all wondered why

Destiny picked us to cry

Why faith has to be tested,

& life doesn’t turn out the way intended.

We’re mended, mended to be broken

Yet human clay believes itself golden

Stunning in its courage to be happy

As wild elations tempered with black melancholy …”

                                                                                                                 — a song by MOTHERJANE

 … don’t know what to say, where to begin and when to end …

The horrendous terror attack on MUMBAI which began on 26/11/2008 and went on until 29/11/2008 has left the city , and eventually the whole nation shattered, devastated and outraged. The cataclysmic events that took place at 10 distinct locations in the city, that followed a 60 hour long non stop ordeal is one of the most dreadful and heinous terror attacks in the World’s history , and the worst on Indian soil ever … 

 

MUMBAI TERROR TARGETS

 

  

I could not sink in the stories and reports continuously aired live over news channels for the past 5 days. It was hard to believe what we could see, the torment which civilians had to go through.

 The pain and agony that the trapped hostages went through, we can perhaps never understand, but their faces and behaviour said it all …

I would urge you’ll to first salute the guardian’s of Indian citizens ,without whom the atrocious incident would have taken more sinister turn and the numbers of dead/injured would have been radically more.

Salute to valiant Mumbai Police officers :

1. Shri. Hemant Karkare (IPS)
   Joint Commissioner Of Police,                                                                                                A.T.S., Mumbai.  
   

   Karkare

    

2. Shri. Ashok Kamte (IPS)
   Additional Commissioner Of Police,
   East Region, Mumbai.                                                                              
3. Shri. Vijay Salaskar
   Police Inspector,
   Anti Extortion Cell, Mumbai.                                                    
4. Shri. Shashank Shinde
   Police Inspector,
   C.S.T. Railway Mumbai                                                                            
5.  Shri. Praksh P. More
   Police Sub Inspector,
   L.T.Marg Police Station                                                                                 
6. Shri. Bapusaheb Durugade
   Police Sub Inspector,                                                                                               
   L.A.1, Naigaon                                                                                             
7. Shri. Tukaram G. Omble
   Asst. Police Sub Inspector,
   D.B.Marg Police Station                                                                                                                                                                                             Watch how Tukaram Omble fought to make sure atleast one terrorist was caught alive by sacrificing his own life . “ Nation and duty first , then self …”is what he valiantly potrayed here ,  “http://ibnlive.in.com/mumbaiattack/photoshow.php?id=1131 
8. Shri. Balasaheb Bhosale                                                                                                              Asst. Police Sub Inspector                                                                                 
9. Shri. Arun Chitte
   Police Constable                                                                                          
10. Shri. Jaywant Patil
    Police Constable                                                                                          
11. Shri. Yogesh Patil
    Police Constable                                                                                             
12. Shri. Ambadas Pawar
    Police Constable                                                                                          
13. Shri. M. Chowdhary
    Police Head Constable, R.P.F.                                                                     
14. Shri. Rahul S. Shinde
    Police Constable, S.R.P.F. Group X, Solapur                                                                                        
15. Shri. Mukesh B. Jadhav
    Home Guard Constable                                                                               

 

Salute to valiant National Security Guards  :

1.   This yound NSG commando, Major Sandeep Unnikrishnan , who did his education in Bangalore was just 31 years old. His mother recollects that he always dreamt and was inspired to join and be part of the armed forces as a child. His mother emotionally said  ” … his  philosophy in entire life was to serve the nation firstand foremost …. ” . A close friend and former colleague of Sandeep’s father Unnikrishnan at ISRO emotionally said ,  ” he did what he wanted to,  he was a son every parent would dream of ….” .

 “Do not come up, I will handle them.” These were probably the last words Sandeep told his while he

           was hit with bullets fired by terrorists.

    2. Commando Chander

(if anyone gets Commando Chander’s photo please provide me the link or mail me) 

 

 

 We express with humble gratitude our deepest condolences on the loss of all these brave men. Our heartfelt sympathies go their family members, children, friends and relatives.

V D Zende ,accouncer at CST who saved many lives :

V D Zende, an announcer at the suburban hall of CST, showed courage under fire. He prompted the people present in the Chatrapati Shivaji Station (CST) to run safely to the exit of the station. Everyday around 40 lakh people travel and go through CST. He is working for CST for last 30 years.

With his quick thinking saw 2 men indiscriminately firing at people and showed people the other route to exit , where a Masjid is situated. He repeatedly told people to flee away, which shows the courage he showed in this tense situation. The indicator operator, helper and Mr.Zende hid in a room, while gunmen shot at them. Gunmen missed at them and no one was shot at.

Sir, the whole nation stands in respect and towards the daring you showed here. We are proud to have people like you. 

  

Following is a chronology of the 60-hour terror trauma in India’s financial capital that began on Wednesday night which left atleast 183 people confirmed dead , including 22 foreigners and 300 plus people injured.

 

 

 Chronology of Mumbai terror attack:

 (Indo-Asian News Service )

 

November 26 (Wednesday)

10 pm: A group of terrorists, armed with automatic rifles, grenades and explosives, sneak into Mumbai by boat, presumably from Karachi.

10.15 pm: Firing, apparently from automatic weapons, at police and paramilitary forces outside the Taj Mahal Hotel in south Mumbai.

10.20 pm: Firing near Hotel Trident — another five-star hotel — barely a kilometre away.

10.30 pm : Firing near Chhatrapati Shivaji Terminus. Suspected terrorists hijack a police jeep near Metro Cinema.

12.00 pm: Firing continues near the Taj hotel where around 2,000 guests and staff were stranded. The top floor of the famous hotel catches fire after a bomb explosion.

November 27 (Thursday)

2 am: Mumbai Police Anti-Terrorism Squad (ATS) chief Hemant Karkare killed in firefight with terrorists. Additional Police Commissioner Ashok Kamte and Mumbai Police encounter specialist Vijay Salaskar also killed in separate gun battles.

10 fresh gunshots ring out at the Taj hotel.

2.30 pm: Maharashtra Director General of Police A N Roy says no more hostages in the Taj hotel.

5 pm : Email sent by unknown group, Mujahideen Hyderabad Deccan, to television channels warning of more attacks.

5.30 pm: Flames billow out of a window at the Taj hotel and gunfire heard from the Oberoi Trident. Security forces prepare for final assault.

8 pm : Major fire breaks out inside the Oberoi Trident following a large explosion and gun battles between security agencies and terrorists.

9.30 pm: Senior Army officer says 10-12 terrorists still hiding in the three places.

10.30 pm: Prime Minister Manmohan Singh arrives in Mumbai.

10.40 pm : Fire breaks out at the Taj hotel again. Huge flames leap up from the roof.

November 28 (Friday)

2.30 am: Two blasts heard at Nariman House in south Mumbai.

5.00: Third blast heard at Nariman House. National Security Guard (NSG) commandos take positions.

6.00: Silence at the luxury hotels as commandos moved in.

7.15: Commandos airdropped on roof of Nariman House.

12 noon: Fresh firing between terrorists and commandos at all three sites.

2.45 pm: Commandos take control of the Oberoi Trident.

7.30: Commandos battle last of terrorists at the Taj hotel.

November 29 (Saturday)

3.50 am: Intense gunfire on first floor of Taj.

7.45: Fire breaks out on lower floors of Taj.

8.20: Commandos complete operation at Taj.

12.00 pm: NSG confirms that all terrorists have been killed at Taj.

3.30: Manmohan Singh meets defence and intelligence officials in New Delhi.

4.30: Indian government announces death toll of 183, including 22 foreigners.

  

 Each image tells us its own story :

 

 

 

 

LOOKS AS IF BIRDS ARE TRYING TO SAVE THIS MAJESTIC AND HISTORICAL BUILDING

 

 Heart-wrenching moments:

 

Its extremely high time that our laws are made more stringent and open. The raw fact is that our politicians fail us. 

My thoughts were grappling incessantly to nothing ,when Maharashtra Home Minister R.R. Patil said these unkind words, “Aisa nahi hai. Itne bade shahar mein chhota hadsa ho jata hai. To total failure nahi hai. (It is not like that. In big cities like this, small incidents do happen. It’s is not a total failure.”

My questions to politicians …

How much more intensifying incident than this 60 hour terror assault you’ll want to see ? In how many places other than Mumbai, Delhi, Bangalore do you want the attacks to occur , so that to take concrete measures are taken. Is this latest incident so minuscule to exclaim such statements in public ?

What are you’ll waiting for ?

When will the powers be , initiate severe laws to protect the citizens of our country  ?

How many more terror attacks ??

How many more valiant Indian martyr’s ?

How many more images of mothers crying , their bodies barely able to stand but wanting touch their son’s forehead ?

How many brave wives of Policeman, defence personnel, Commandos, firemen, eminent scientists, eminent businessmen , CEO’s at last rites trying to console themselves as well as her young children ?

How many more innocent lives ??

How many more injured people lying on hospital beds ??

How many more traumatized lives ??

How many more loved ones lost ? How many mothers losing their sons and daughters ?

How many parents have to stand and see through their eyes , their own progeny’s pyre/cremation/coffin/burial ?

How many sons peforming rituals and last rites of their brave fathers ?

How many sisters ? How many brothers ? How many more families ? How many more friends ?

The nation is furious, irritated and enraged as ever ,today .. 

We want actions & solutions with hard talks, not fake proposals & false promises. Is one terror attack is not enough for these people to understand the seriousness of this situation ? The history of Mumbai’s terror attacks has time and again shown how vulnerable this city is to terror attacks, yet the Indian government hasn’t taken a single significant step to crack down on nationwide terror.

Public places, railway stations , famous joints, hotels, business centres, God forsaken even hospitals are not spared by these indecent terrorists

Mr. P.R.S. Oberoi , Chairman & CEO of Oberoi group in an interview last night said ”Our government is reactive, not proactive. We need the latter more. There is a limit to how much individual hotels can secure their property. The concept of hospitality will change in this country if the government does not act.”

I am sure each and every Indian agrees to this fact that the government is more reactive, waiting for such ghastly incidents to happen and then they will take initiatives. Initiatives will not be in full swing, with interest and lawful, but just to keep the Indian mouths shut and stop the media from focussing on the same points again and again ,repeatedly.

After this attack ,India has been named among 20 most dangerous places in the world. It’s not exciting to hear this at all, especially when the nation is growing to be one of the topmost developed nation in the whole world. It could affect our economy in days to come.

Pakistan’s President Mr.Zardari was so unethical in his talks with Karan Thaper “Devils Advocate”. What irked me to the core is this statement ” As the President of Pakistan, let me assure you that if any evidence points towards any individual or group in my part of the country, I will take the strictest of action in the light of the evidence and in front of the world.”

Oh , so you have spent so many years in Pakistan’s politics along with your wife and you dont know there are terror camps in Pakistan ? The whole world knows about terror camps inhabited and harboured in Pakistan and ISI is the main source of Intelligence. Long while agon when Benazir Bhutto was having peace talks with India , she revealed that she didn’t know about some inside government elements helping out to the terrorists. So can you not take steps from your side as President of Pakistan to find out more ? I felt you were talking for someone else, not representing the people of Pakistan. You showed such callousness in speaking Mr. Zardari that your own countrymen wont believe you, let alone the world aside.

Sir, when you spoke that your heart bleeds, you hardly meant it. If you really are concerned, then act now. It’s too late I suppose, but to restore the faith , you may atleast for the sake of your wife prove that you are a man of deeds , and not simply a man of words …

The whole excerpt of this candid conversation can be read here :

With Mr. Zardari :

http://ibnlive.in.com/news/india-pak-threatened-from-same-forces-zardari/79374-2.html

Dialogue never hurt anyone : Mani Shaknar Aiyar

http://ibnlive.in.com/news/dialogue-never-hurt-anyone-mani-shankar-aiyar/79446-3.html

Diplomacy is much more than sweet talk : Yashwant Sinha

http://ibnlive.in.com/news/diplomacy-is-much-more-than-sweet-talk-yashwant-sinha/79445-3.html

An incident that shows the anger within people coming out and being vent on polititians, the first public outbreak for intolerance in the dirty Indian political system, Major Sandeep’s father Unnikrishnan was the man in news.

(Excerpt TOI)

The anger against the political class in wake of the Mumbai terror attack boiled over with slain NSG commando Major Sandeep Unnikrishnan’s father literally shooing away Kerala chief minister V S Achuthanandan on Sunday.

The CM, who had been criticized for his delay in offering condolences to the bereaved family, who hail from Kerala, tried to make up by calling on the Unnikrishnans. But he failed to anticipate the rejection he would meet at the residence of the fallen soldier. The dead commando’s father did not tolerate the CM’s presence and shouted at him to leave at once. ( Watch )

Opposition parties in Kerala have accused the state government of having shown disrespect to the Kerala-born soldier, who lost his life while combating terrorists in Mumbai, by not sending any minister to his funeral, attended by a large number of people, including Karnataka CM B S Yeddyurappa, here on Saturday.

Achuthanandan, accompanied by home minister Kodiyeri Balakrishnan, had rushed to the city on Sunday evening.

As Sandeep’s father remained firm that no politician should enter his house and refused to meet the leaders from his own state, police persuaded Dhanalakshmi, the slain commando’s mother, to talk to the guests.

Amid continued protests from the father, Balakrishnan gave words of comfort to Dhanalakshmi and Achuthanandan followed him. Unnikrishnan reportedly said he would commit suicide if any politician entered his house.

He had told his friends that his son, whose valour was witnessed by the entire country, did not belong to Kerala alone but to the entire nation.

Unnikrishnan refused to allow police sniffer dogs into the house when security personnel came there ahead of the Kerala CM’s visit to perform their duties.

Meanwhile, a spokesman for Achuthanandan in Thiruvananthapuram said the political secretary of the CM had attended the funeral.

                                                                                                                                   — to be continued

Must read :

1. Rajdeep Sardessai :                                                                       http://ibnlive.in.com/news/weekend-edition-india-asks-how-much-is-too-much/79401-3-p0.html
2. India named among 20 most dangerous places after Mumbai terror attacks : http://www.ndtv.com/convergence/ndtv/mumbaiterrorstrike/Election_Story.aspx?ID=NEWEN20080074678&type=News
3. Pak warns and fears a war like situation with rising tensions within India and Pakistan. http://ibnlive.in.com/news/pak-fears-warlike-situation–but-zardari-diplomatic/79400-2.html  

        

 

A beauty : Yamaha FZ 16 …

Date :               14th September, 2008.
Place :              Goa.

Occasion :        Media Launch of beauty : Yamaha FZ 16 “The Lord of the Streets”

The most awaited bike that’s been in news … design, pricing and stunning , sexy looks coupled with sheer power of Yamaha’s technology, from the Global FZ series …

Have a look at the specs, and you’ll realize why …

It’s most likely that this, 132kmph is not like other bikes wherein the whole bike resonates and shakes uncontrollably when in top speed J , because this is YAMAHA… a highway test ride could prove this…

The rock-solid performance engines and speed motorbikes to its credit stand testimony to this.

Also one more thing to notice is this isn’t an oil cooled but a purely air – cooled engine J

Draped in 3 vicious colors : Lava Red, Midnight Black, Flaming Orange the bike awaits a drooling commercial launch in the festive season of October.

Company Brochure :

 

TANK

 

1. LAVA RED

 

2. MIDNIGHT BLACK

3. FLAMING ORANGE

With the youth awaiting to embrace this bike , a ” YAMAHA “ J, this product maybe a hit …

Till then, those planning to buy FZ, start your dream ride …. NOW!!!

Wait, it’s not over yet … there’s more to the news, for those thinking of riding a monstrous one, YAMAHA has a Goliath in store for them … but they will have to wait …

Christened “FZ1” a street motorcycle, a whopping 1000 cc bike ( whooaaaah )… scheduled to release in 2009, set to burn the Indian roads…

Yamaha will clearly make high-quality and high-performance products for India, so I expect the price of bikes to be more than normal brand ones.

FZ is slated to be in the range nearing 70,000 INR.

Check this out for explicit and complete FZ range details :-

http://www.yamaha-motor.com/sport/products/lifestylehome/home.aspx/

 

THE DAY PRASAD PRABHU BREATHED LAST …..

Disclaimer : ” I dont intend to hurt anyone’s sentiments by writing this post. I must make myself clear ,one thing, although I have managed to write the incidents , it isnt right in anyway, any manner to proclaim that I was the only person who did all things. There are many of them , who deserve a mention here and have done more to save Prasad. Any such evidence or feeling, in my post is purely co-incidental and unintended. “

NOTE : It was so frustrating to know that ,newspapers included their own story and did not consider a bit , the value of HUMAN LIFE. Now I know ,how Goan newspapers just vie for crap info and print without interrogating. Factually speaking Navahind Times had reported the worse, Prasad jumped from 75 feet, and remaining 15 students went into water again. How could you’ll be so inhumane ??? Man we just lost a life here ….and you’ll are playing with us?? The news and print media is a medium to help out bring out the problems faced by common man. The Journalism of courage and TRUTH must be top priority.I urge the newspaper editors to take the responsibility.

“Death continues to stalk us ….

Sometimes gently, mostly not …

I’m at the age when loved ones die …

And I understand as I live why ….. “

Tell you all a thing,that you ought to know, two minutes of your time, then you go …… go…… go…..

I cant seem to get the right words in here , but I strive to pour out all my thoughts as I feel the shadows play in my mind ….

Today ,its exactly a week since I last saw one of my dear friend …

14th April 2007, the day which revived me to learn, know, feel, experience , live the so called vagaries of LIFE …

14th April 2007,the day when I lost my beloved and dear friend, Prasad Prabhu , in an uncalled for and tragic incident, to GOD …

Prasad Prabhu, a final year Electronics & Telecommunication Engg student from our college, with just 2 weeks remaining for the last sem of our engineering life , has left for HEAVENLY ABODE …

The day started for me as any day , got up early to leave for a trek organised by NATURE CLUB of our college (GEC). The place decided upon was Netravali , located in Eastern Goa , Sanguem Taluka.

Enthusiastically I left my hostel room at 7:30 AM to main building where we were supposed to gather for trek. I saw Prasad Prabhu and Ashish Pednekar standing near bike stand , the block just before main building. I turned my way to meet both …who were talking and ..smiling as I neared them. I greeted with my hands and talked for about half an hour with them …

When college bus was about to leave, we climbed into bus and Ashish n Prasad were standing just next to me … we were on our way now …..

I offered a seat later afer sometime , to Prasad and Ashish , to sit , but they chose to stand …and we went along ….talking ….laughing … the whole time in bus ….
After journey of 1 & 1/2 hrs we reached at place where we had to decide which direction to take to waterfall …

Mainapi Waterfalls : 9 kms ,

Savari Waterfalls : 3.5 kms,

BudBud Tali : 1km,

Datta Mandir : 1 km.

We chose to go the long route to Mainapi waterfalls …..

So here we were walking along the stream by our side, towards the waterfall ….on rocks …

I walked behind the guide and Shailesh was right behind me, and right behind him was Prasad ……walking with us the whole journey of trek ….

As Prasad saw me writing on a page he asked me what is it that I am writing … I replied ” for Blog re ..“

We neared the waterfall and I was ecstatically running fast to reach the place FIRST …. while running I fell in one of the rocks and and Prasad helped me up ….. I had the page in my pocket now …I was wet …. I told Prasad to remove it from my pocket… he said “ sure …“, he asked if he can read what I wrote till now … I laughed back and said ” why not … “

I told him I shall go further …and I ran again …..

I did reach the fall first, and went straight into waters ….it wasnt deep at all nearby ……. the water was very cold …..little did I knew then, that this would be the place …………..

Others reached in sometime, and I was like waiting for Prasad, Ashish , Shailesh to come by ….so that I could also make them feel the chillness of the water ……

When they did come near , I dragged Ashish in first , collected water in both hands and splashed the water onto his chest ….and he was like “oooh … so cold…“. Then Prasad’s turn ….splashed all over him …..back …chest ..face. He said “ wait re ,lemme come in atleast ..brrrrrrrr “

Rashmi,Uma, Neha joined in ….. Shailesh chose to come in later …but here we were enjoying to fullest ….splashing water on each other and talking about surroundings …….

It was around one hour that we were in water. Lunch was being served …and I was so damn hungry …..

I said to Ashish n Prasad that I and Shailesh are going to have lunch, they told to go ahead ….. so we moved on …
After lunch when we come back , I hear that something bad …that Ashish was saved from drowning, I said “ My God ” and saw him sitting nearby …phew !!!

As I neared him, I saw Rashmi sitting nearby alone , she asked Shailesh ,” where’s Prasad ,can you bring him to have his lunch? he didn’t have yet …“

Well Shailesh was confused now , Prasad was supposed to be with them, as we two had only left ….. I was behind , and Shailesh asked me the same ….. I replied ” I dont know …..“

Then we hear from Rashmi that she also came out , sometime after we left ….. now this stings us …..

“ where’s he now ? “

Search began , we thought he might have gone to answer nature’s call ….so backtracked to the way we came to the falls to search him nearby …….

“ Prasad …… Prasad …………………Prasad ……………..Prasad …. “

no reply ….. Shailesh,Yogesh n me got down the rocks and shouted again ….

again no reply ….

We walked back to falls to tell others he’s not to be seen nor heard behind …

now frantic ….. we strained to see if Prasad was in the line of sight ,amongst all others …

nowhere to be seen ….

some of my classmates had climbed the small hill and were seen .. we shouted aloud and asked if Prasad was with them ….. “ no “

we had to check the worst and last of all the doubts we had in our mind …. did he drown ???

I swear ,this was unthought of , but then we had to check out ….

The situation was tense …… speculations ripe that he might have drowned …

Those who knew swimming got in to find out ….they were checking out all places ……. no sign yet ……..

In between we hear a cry …… I turn to see Audhut from our class screaming with fear in his eyes ……. ” hanga asa …hanga asa …..pay laglo tejo …… hanga asa …..“

Everyone stood in silence …. wondering if what they heard was indeed true ……..

The others were quickly thinking of removing him out of water … Audi then went underwater completely and removed him ……he was stuck inside …holding a rock maybe ……

The moment I saw Prasad ….. I stoood rooted onto place ….. in fear .. eyes ,not wanting to believe what they just saw I was trying to compose myself ….. until my perceptions sensed reality …..

our worst of worst of fears ….. was true …..

I reached the place where Prasad was lying , some students came forward ,while I heard someone say … “ his heart is still beating ……“

Then and there ,we started pressing his chest , rubbing his hands , rubbing his feet , rubbing his temple ….

water was coming out of his mouth and nose ….

Sujay started mouth-to-mouth respiration by now , water came bubbling out of his mouth and nose again ….

we kept on doing these things ….. took turns ….. praying in our mind to Almighty to get him back to life ….soon …
But no sign of it ….. we continued ….long time …..long time ….

we had full hope put in ……. we shall get him back ….. shall get him back ……

I was there watching ….. doing …… these things ….

but as time passed by …. we realised it was long enough by now …

it was somewhere two hours since we got his body out of water …

Readers, you can only imagine as I say here, but you’ll must have realised what it was to be actually be here …..seeing ….doing ….trying …… its unexplainable in words ….
some students were so scared , some left the place , on their way back to bus …alogside the stream the same way we came ….

It was decided only a few would remain back, and rest others would walk upon to bus, back 9 kms.B’coz it would be dark by the time we reach back and others also would remain stranded. Ofcourse every parent would be impatient if their child comes late.

I was also told to leave , I couldn’t make up whether I shd stay back or should I walk . somewhat the feeling inside me was not to leave the place, eventually I had to ……

On the way all were silently walking .Everyone was thinking just one thing maybe, how did such a drastic thing happen ??

Seriously speaking , I couldnt walk, so did my friends .. it was a restless feling within ourselves ,legs would give up at times …

One question consumed me the whole way while walking, “ how is it that no one noticed him drowning ?? “

We reached the place where bus was waiting to leave , we checked to see if everyone was in bus other than the ones who remained back.

Audi, Joel , Myresh, Maya, Prajekta, Aditya,Gaurish, Harish, Altaf, Nikhil, Doke, Sudeesh,Sujay,Rama,Tushar, Sujay S, along with a faculty chose to stay back at the place …

There was no range down. so Jibhin, Sagar, had to climb the steep hill to call police ,ambulance and rescue team ….Jibhin called for the chopper , but we got a reply. “ there aren’t any pilots at present, not even emergency pilots “,

shame , utter shame … are you telling us there aren’t any pilots ?

In the evening , when wood was lit for fire, flock of wild honey bees attacked those who were present and they had to dive into water to save themselves from bee stings.They were in for about 45 minutes in chilled damn cold water. Luckily it rained, and the bees left the place all were safe …God saved them.

I dont mention many other small tragedies that took place , but it is insignificant I believe …..

We were all tired, silent and thinking inside the bus.

Shailesh and I got down the bus,we had Prasad’s bag and his bike keys with us.We took bike to hostel. I had to gather courage ,to open Prasad’s bag , to take something out ….. “THE PAGE THAT I WAS WRITING ON FOR MY BLOG “…it lay there in the first zip … the instant I it took out, I felt as if I am stealing away something … but then I wanted this , so that this reminds me ,of the times we both had together ……. the page will always be incomplete ….

Once I reached hostel,on top of terrace , lied back on the wall …. thinking … the invasion had just began ….. disillusioned ,I could see only darkness all around …..

One question that came back to me again and again endlessly , mocking me to find out …was …

” how did he actually drown ? and why is it that no one had seen him drowning ? “

It would be just a matter of seconds ….. I believe …that he drowned and no one couldnt notice … people put it out as ” TIME “. “It was his TIME to ……”

But I say to Lord Krishna, you took him near yourself very soon ….

Today I was there with him all the time …. we had got along so well and come so close to each other … suddenly my LORD you take him away from me …..

I feel guilty now , and will never cease to , thinking ” why did I not take him for lunch along with me,in the afternoon ….I should have waited … “

“

I ask the silent waters …..

I ask the breeze blowing upon …

I ask the huge rocks nearby …

I ask the trees nearby …

I ask the hill nearby ….

I ask the birds in sky ….

I ask the chirping crickets …

I ask the dry leaves falling ….

Is there anyone or anybody who can asnwer me ???? whom should I ask ????

Its like questions dipped in poison ….

burning with seeds of doubt …

helpless I turn to heavens …

But the silence is still too loud ….

The only one who can truthfully answer me is LORD himself … but he also chooses to remain silent ….

I screamed , top of my voice …… and then I seeked …. I searched for the answers in the echoes of my shout,

…….            ……                …..                ….                 …                       ..                 .

but …… why is it that no one seems to answer me ???????????

confused and angry I said to Lord , ” Krishna , You have so many good and pious people surrounding you , in heaven, You didnt have to take him near you , this way …You wipe out the sinners on this earth ….there are many of them …whom to point out ? there are many …..take them away ….. the world shall be a better place to live in then ….. take them the way you want …. but, there are good people in this world….. they are needed for a long time , for the near and dear ones …..he had come so close to me today, and suddenly you take him away ……I cannot handle ….are you listening to me ??????????? “

I think about all those bad people on the earth taking away innocent lives and making their asses safe ….

” You do one thing for me Krishna, send me to Hell … I am ready to commit no sin …but you send me to Hell …let me wipe out the filth there …. I’ll try …..give me a chance ….let me kick those devils but send me to Hell “

to all those sinners ……all those hide behind the walls …all those hide behind desks …all those hide in their mansions ….
“And I hope that you die, and your death will come soon
I’ll follow your casket, in the pale afternoon
And I’ll watch as your lowered, into your deathbed
And I’ll stand on your grave till I’m sure that your dead”

Sometime later, I walked down to room, just laid down …

I dont know when I slept …..

The next day I reached at Prasad’s place along with friends, Principal and Prof.Amonkar. I saw the rites being performed upon Prasad standing near … somehow the sight made me feel helpless within …

It was time to take Prasad on bamboo stretcher to the funeral pyre …as Prasad was being taken … I followed behind closely … until he was put in a tempo …

Here I stood, my defences was breaking up, and tears welled up in my eyes ….

these eyes ,had seen a life just turn into moments …. leaving behind snapshots of pain ….in memory …

The next day in college , condolence meet was held for our dear Prasad …. observing two minute silence ….

Now as I write this, and all such experiences I have been through in my life, comes as a flashback unto my mind ….. I realise the world is not as I percieve to be … Lord doesn’t seem to listen to me …nor to you …

I realise that ,as the mirrors of paradigm and life unfolds, I taste my fear in life’s battlefield’s …..

I have to stand to such potent, powerful conquests of pain , again and again and again ……..

So does each of you’ll , friends …

It is in this conquest ,that I offer my deepest condolences , to my friend Rashmi, Prasad’s family,Rashmi’s family,and relatives …
“I, my friends, students and faculty of my college, and others ,pray to GOD to give them enough courage and strength to tide over this extreme , irrepairable loss ….”

The ageless and timeless TRUTH , BHAGAVAD GITA, The Holy book tries to convince and comfort me in the end …. I share it with you all …..

“na jâyate mriyate vâ kadâcin

nâyam bhûtvâ bhavitâ vâ na bhûyah

ajo nityah sâsvato ‘yam purâno

na hanyate hanyamâne sarîre “

the above is the verse in Sanskrit , from Chapter 2, Text 20 of the Holy book, Bhagavad Gita …

Translation :

” For the soul, there is neither birth nor death at any time. He has not come into being, does not come into being, and will not come into being. He is unborn, eternal, ever-existing and primeval. He is not slain when the body is slain …..”

 

ROCK AND WAVES ….. A HEADBANGER’S JOURNEY.

Hello friends

Yup, its me after a really really long time ….

I am listening to IRON MAIDEN’s latest album “ A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH“, as I write this post.

What I specifically liked about this album , is that, this isn’t a concept album ,but WAR n RELIGION are the main themes touched upon. The artwork on the album adds to this fact.

This album also is the band’s longest album to date, in their successfull 30 year career. In their 14th album, the instrumentals are lengthy and lyrics stronger …

I still remember buying my first IRON MAIDEN cassette (EMI Label) , at Bangalore,while in higher secondary, to be specific in 11th. I had been to Bangalore to meet my cousin. My memories still ring me those moments , when I told my parents that I had purchased a cassette , HEAVY METAL one. My father did know what heavy metal rock songs were like, but i had to convince my mother a lot. Here’s why ….

the album front cover had this artwork …imagine the reaction when you show this to your parents ….

 

The first song from that cassette, was a song of the same name as the album , “SEVENTH SON OF A SEVENTH SON “, and as the song started ,the instrumentals were enough to get my mother on feet . The moment crude and crazy vocals of great STEVE HARRIS came on , my mother stopped the player and took out the cassette. Man this song is the ultimate n lengthiest one ( 9:53 mins) in the whole album and was also the reason why I purchased the cassette ….

She gave me a warning …”never ever will you buy such sort of cassettes again without permission”, and said to return the cassette then and there …..

phew !!!!! here goes the only ROCK album I had ….
Besides she told me that ,such music may also adversely affect my young brother who was still in primary school. Ofcourse true. I agree to this point, even though , I myself was still in teens and I did buy it in haste, without telling anyone.

I was adamant on not returning this cassette. After lot of convincing and maskaa lagana, she agreed on one condition, that I would not listen to, when everyone’s at home. Ohhk ,I agreed to this . At many uncontrollable times, I used to keep the player near to my ears ,where I normally used to sleep, in another room, and listen at a hyper-low volume in the night, after everyone at home was ASLEEP, aah blissss. Only to sometimes get up in the morning , listening my little brother complaining to my parents what he just saw ……. bah

 

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I witnessed the annual cultural extravaganza of BITS PILANI GOA CAMPUS , WAVES 2007 ,” URBAN CHAOS”. The first day I reached at 7.30 pm or so, to see the ROCK NITE where college bands across Goa showcased their talent here, on guitars, drums, n own vocals. My college (GEC) band was good, specially the lead guitarist, VITUO MEDEO.This is one snap that I took while he was performing ….

Needless to say the BITS band outperformed other colleges…man they sure were playing the right chords …

BITS’ians ,way to go guys …keep your spirits high

The second day , I wasnt there the whole day. DJ NITE, didnt witness this one though. Heard it was ok ….. no interest anyways ….

I spent the whole day on BITS campus right from morning on third and final day …

First event being Melanger, a musical event. This was the first time I entered the Auditorium of BITS , and I was like whooooaaaaa …

Beauty …..

superb …..

chaance maare BITS students’ak !!!

After Melanger was over , I strolled across to their canteen. Again applause !!! Good quality food. Atleast many times better than our canteen …

Then I saw “URBAN BLAH”. Mr n Miss Waves was fun enough to keep us smiling …. specially the messages typed by Prakhar, a 2nd year student of host college. Good work man !!!

Lucky guy , in the end the “beautiful,sexy,bitchy,naughty” girl contestant from PCCE, was impressed on this guy, she pinched his cheek in front of audience and what a applause followed then …..

(by the way this girl while introducing herself said this …” I am the sexy,naughty,bitchy girl next door….” , now you understand why I wrote the same earlier)

It was evening by now, and the stage near B-Wing Plaza was fully set , the most important event I was awaiting for …THE ROCK SHOW “Pro nite” ….

There I was standing … near the stage …. looking at the whole setup… the amps ….the controls ….backdrop …. lights ….. drumset ….the speakers MARSHALL , PRISM … what we actually see in rock music videos
Oh boy !!! do you all get the picture ??

The surge of musical ecstacy that I felt within at this moment is unexplainable by words ….

In some moments the stage came to life …. testing drums …guitar ..mike ..
The first band to open was …” HALF STEP DOWN”(H.S.D),a Rock-n-Roll band from capital New Delhi. From what I learn ,a BITsian said to me a while before …H.S.D won “Rocktaves 06″ at BITS Pilani and also won “Best original composition“. Hmmm …good …

The Band members ….

• Dhaval Mudgal ( LEAD VOCALS)
• Anirudh Nair (BASS GUITARS)
• Jishnu Bannerjee (LEAD)
• Srijan Mahajan (DRUMS)
• Shiv Lumba (PIANO,KEYBOARD)

The Discography (songs they played )…

1. Initially they started with two originals …

2. Good Times, Bad Times ( by Led Zepp )

3. Blues Jam

4. Plush

5. One more ( Gerard )

6. Why go home ( PEARL JAM )

7. Knocking at the back of my head ( Original song HALF STEP DOWN written by D Mughdal )

Dhaval was running all over the stage and down the steps …. yeah ! ….just the thing we needed to get warmed up .. the PEARL JAM song “Why go home” was enough to get me started ….

Some trivia here ….

“Why go home ” is a song from album TEN , Pearl Jam’s first album released in 1991.The album’s 11 tracks deal with dark subjects like depression, suicide, loneliness, and murder.Ten stayed on the Billboard charts for more than two years. The album has gone on to become one of the biggest-selling rock records ever, going duodecuple (12x) platinum.

The next band to come on stage was “BHAYANAK MAUT“, a metal / hardcore / death metal /nu-metal band from MUMBAI …The name itself is self explanatory isnt it ????
BHAYANAK MAUT WON IIT MUMBAI “LIVEWIRE 2005 “.The band has seen a meteoric rise in their popularity playing at competitions like RAIT Horizons, IIT Chennai – Saarang (Finalists), NLS Strawberry Fields Bangalore and numerous gigs at venues like Razzberry Rhinoceros, Cyclone. They played at the first gig at JRO 2004 and also came third at Blitzkreig 2004 – the IIT Delhi competition. They also coveted top honours at the prestigious NLS STRAWBERRY FIELDS, Bangalore.They have released a 7 song album called ‘Hell Is All People’ which is a great hit among metal fans.
Band Members …

• Vinay – vocals
• Rahul – drums
• Venky – guitars
• Vinit – bass

Discography ( songs they played ) …

1. Boiled.Unwound.Filatured. ( Original composition )

2. As early as I die

3. No perfect no change

4. This darkened heart ( Band : All that remains , dark lyrics)

5. Happiness People

6. Black Label ( Band : Lamb of God )

7. Pica ( Original song )

The third and last band was a BLAST … BREEEZE ……

they call themselves ” MOTHER JANE “, from Cochin, Kerala, formed in 1996 ,when a bunch of talented college going friends found their calling in ROCK….

Seriously folks, this is one band that I feel has to potential to rock your sorry ass and influence tons of incoming acts that are still stuck in mom and dad’s garage ……

was that too harsh ???

yup it was meant to be ….. guys get going …well I am saying that to myself too …

Band members ….

• Baiju ( LEAD )
• Deepu ( RHYTHM )
• Suraj ( VOCALS )
• John ( DRUMS )
• Clyde ( BASS )
  

( pics are in the same order as the names )

The band takes its own time setting the amps and other controls …

And finally here they were ready….Suraj introduces the whole band in enthusiasm ..then he just lets loose ………..

They start with a beautiful song …”Be Quick or Be Dead” ,which is the first single from the Iron Maiden album Fear of the Dark, released in 1992. The song is about several political scandals taking place at the time of its release, including the Robert Maxwell banking scandal, European stock market crashes, and the BCCI case. Love this number ….
Discography ( songs they played )

1. Be quick or Be Dead ( IRON MAIDEN )

2. Disillusioned ( first self composed song )

3. Mindstreet ( self composed song )

lead and drums ……….. my GOD !!!!!!!
4. Questions ( self composed song )

the drums and lead were splendid ….. crazzzzzzy ..

5. Two Minutes to midnight ( IRON MAIDEN )

played to perfection ,as if we were witnessing IRON MAIDEN ..

6. Maya ( self composed song )

this is another beautiful song , composed intentionally to create awareness about the INDIAN GIRL CHILD …… Thankx guys …and I urge every reader to give this problem a serious thought ..

Girls have excelled in every field that boys has been dominating upon… they too have equal right to oppurtunity and living , the way they decide to ..

” PLEASE STOP KILLING THE INNOCENT ONES IN THE WOMB”

” STOP KILLING THE GIRL CHILD …..”

7. Soul Corporations ( self composed song )

This is another heart-touching song ,a Japanese song …compiled ..

potrays the misuse done in the name of RELIGION by people who form so called CORPORATIONS … all in the name of RELIGION , divide people, spread hatredness , communal violence

SHAME ON SUCH PEOPLE ……

8. Broken ( self composed song from new album : MAKTUB)

Baiju (lead) in between gave a “sitar” like feel playing on guitars ..Amazing….Excellent. Never heard such a thing before ….

Broken is nominated for the “Song of the year” category at the JD Tennesse Annual Rock Awards this year …Suraj and Baiju get nominated for the Vocalist of the year and Guitarist of the year resp. The band is contemplating releasing a video for this song this year … Wait and watch they say !!!

After this song , Baiju suddenly bambooooozles the already ecstatic audience by playing the theme song of DHOOM 2 only on lead …

Woah !!! Beauty !!! Crowd is now set into frenzy …… and long for more …. and they didnt make us wait for long either ….they start with …….

9. Wherever I may roam ( METALLICA )

hehe I think this song needs no intro …a little info anyways ….

Metallica (also known as The Black Album because of its largely black and featureless cover) is the fifth album by the band Metallica. Metallica was released August 12, 1991 and is the band’s best-selling album to date.

10. Blood in the apple ( inspired by 9/11 tragedy , superb one)

the ending of this song still lingers in my head ….

” one more ripple in the circle of pain …

one more cripple in the circle of pain ….

again ……”
11. Chasing the sun ( self composed song )

Suraj dedicates this song to his wife and two kids ,who were also present in the BITS-PILANI Goa campus , song from new album MAKTUB

12. Karmic Steps ( self composed unreleased song .. it talks about Faith and Action …..War and Fight)

They wanted to stop here ….but then crowd was shouting aloud for one more and specifically IRON MAIDEN one ….so they present with this one …

13. Hallowed be thy name ( IRON MAIDEN )

The last song was played to perfection by them ….

Infact every song they played was breath taking and a pleasure to listen …

vocals that came straight from the heart….

and those lovely lead harmonies ….

they left an impression in the minds of we young ROCK AFFICIONADOS … they were simple and professional and no show-offs …. PURE UNADULTERATED pros dedicated to bringing the change in this filthy world …. thru MUSIC ….hardly do we find such a band ,isnt it friends ?

Well I can think of another such band who personify ABSOLUTE PROFESSIONALISM and PURE TALENT towards MUSIC and has left an indelible impression upon myself …any guesses ??

“PINK FLOYD” is the name …..

And friends whoever have personally witnessed MOTHER JANE performing can easliy form a decision that they are the best … atleast the best INDIAN rock band I have witnessed …( excuse me, not witnessing others …. )

Browse to www.riffonline.com/ , Vote for the Best Band …along with Vote for the Vocalist and Guitarist of the Year …

for MOTHER JANE ….

Well, it was an event not to be missed … I dont know if next year I’ll be able to make it to this event , as I’ll be passing out …specially ROCK SHOW , but certainly no doubt of plan to attend ….

specially after THE GEC ROCK SHOW which was famous all over the Nation once upon a time, is scrapped since last year …

Ahhhh …. This reminds me of HAPPENINGZ 07 ….

I had written a message to all the ENGICOS …and on the third n last day of event , announcement for best message of HAPPENINGZ 2007 was made …..

surprise !! surprise !!! it was for me …..

the message goes like this …

“ENGICOS

ROCK TO THE CORE …..
BANG YOUR HEAD TO BRAIN DAMAGE …….
DANCE TILL YOUR BODY IS COMFORTABLY NUMB ….”

I had written only these three lines but then the full message goes like this ..

”

ROCK TO THE CORE …..
BANG YOUR HEAD TO BRAIN DAMAGE …….
DANCE TILL YOUR BODY IS COMFORTABLY NUMB ….
CRY …..
FEEL …..
LAUGH …..
DONT SLOW DOWN ….

KEEP YOUR SPIRITS HIGH AND YOUR DREAMS HIGHER ….

HERE’S THE DWELLER ON THE THRESHOLD SIGNING OFF WITH ONE MESSAGE TO THE WHOLE ENGICO COMMUNITY OUT THERE ….

ROCK FOR PEACE …

”

The event got over around 12.10 am … drained and sweating due to moshing and head banging I sat with friends on lawns for sometime ..till the crowd dispersed out …. we were thirsty too ….

there were some BITSians grabbing away the left-over colddrinks and water bottles from huge drums … we went there to ask for a bottle of water ….

One thing I felt bad about these people was, these students were rude and didnt give us water at all , even when we requested that we were thirsty …. sheee …shame on you all ….come to GEC even thought we face hell lotta problems of water shortage frequently, we are ready to give …

But how we got to drink not only water but cold-drink also is another scene ….. hehehe ….

In few moments campus was empty with only BITSians roaming here and there …. we started on our journey back to GEC HOSTEL …

While leaving on bikes … I had a last look at the BITS campus …..

and my eyes fell on the stage where the bands had just finished performing …. it wore a deserted look there …. no one on stage ….lights on …..drums still there ….. amps lying around ….speakers …. and the thought crossed my mind ….

” Someday …..

Someday …..

Someday …….

It’s gonna be a day when ………..”

….. conscious yet not feeling sleepy …..I started dreaming …..

”

I am the immortal , baptized in fire

Unable to die unless I desire

I am the light piercing the darkest dawn

I am the human spirit , Walking on …

”

 

RIGHT TO FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION …..

COST OF WAR IN IRAQ

REQUEST FROM FRIENDS, KNOWN AND UNKNOWN MADE ME DECIDE TO DELETE THIS POST.

HEARTFELT THANKX TO THOSE READERS WHO MADE ME FELT SPECIAL….

“The way some guys and gurls names are been spoiled over there by writting msges in their name.Why have people to do that?Cant the people be just nice and gud to each other?Leave in peace with each other?”

SO AS OF NOW THIS POST STANDS NUMB

KEEP READING.

 

MY FREAKEST HOP IN ENGINEERING LIFE …

it’s 11th august (Friday) today …
anxious moments …awaiting results ..

and whooopyy …

we all managed to get good marks this time ..

in the evening twilight i sat on the terrace in solitude ..
thinking about my future …

my marks …

as usual my thoughts strayed constantly out of my mood …
and was humming Euphoria’s latest song “mehfuz” to accompany my loneliness .. feel the lyrics …

Zindagi Hai dhuan to kya

Bujh gayi har subah to kya

Rootha mujhse khuda to kya

Ho gaye hum juda to kya

Faasle they hazaaron darmiyan,

Waqt ke they hazaaron imtehaan

Fir bhi ban ke nishaan,

Tere honthon ke kisi kone mein Hansi ki tarah

main mehfuz hoon

Teri aankhon ke chipe dard mein Aansoo ki tarah

main mehfuz hoon

Bewajah har wajah to kya

Begunahii hai gunaah to kya

Beasar hai dua to kya

Ho gaye hum juda to kya

Raaz gehre hazaron bepanah

Lafz thehare hazaaron bejubaan

Fir bhi ban ke nishaan Tere honthe ke kisi kone mein Hansi ki tarah

main mehfuz hoon

Tere kesu ke mude pannon meinYaadon ki tarah

main mehfuz hoon

Mehfuz hoon Teri aankhon mein

Mehfuz hoonTeri yaadon mein

Mehfuz hoonTeri baaton mein

Mehfuz hoonTere baalon mein

Mehfuz hoon

Faasle the hazaron darmiyaan

Waqt ki thi hazaron aandhiyan

Fir bhi ban ke nishaan

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“There was a vague sort of charm and timelessness I felt as i sat here , lost in thoughts  …”

hopefully this timelessness does not remain forever  \,,/

we had decided a mini hop tonight ..
and the account of which you all are going to read now …

the arrangements had to be made in the room ..
pc was ready ..
so was the songs and videos in GB’s ..
and importantly the speakers ….which mattered us the most ..

all was set ..

we went down to shiv-ganga ..
Achal had brought his car. Off we went in his vehicle down the GEC slope ..I had to , in a damned way sit in the rear of the car ..it was jumping since i was just above wheels ..

It was drizzling outside and cool breeze was hitting us ..

Aditya,Rajesh and Audi also entered at the same time ..
they were sitting on nearby table ..

We were watching FTV …

” Cheers to all who cleared papers …” we shouted …
This was specially for Abhijeet who managed to clear all his backs of fifth sem , then for Nagraj who also managed to clear all the papers he answered well , then undoubtedly and

inevitably i cannot forget this DAREDEVIL of GEC ..achal , he too managed to clear all his backs of 5th sem and fresh ones ..

By now Naveen(Nonya) joined us … he wanted to go home early but we didn’t allow him to go ..

It was nearly an hour before we left this place ..
this time while going back too ,i had to occupy the rear of the car …
a bumpy ride again … uh -huh ..

Reached the GEC campus and outside the hostel ..

The game just began as we set foot on the campus ..

Soon we were in our room ..
it was exactly 12.12 am , and music started blaring out of our room ..

We had brought Abhi’s speakers in our room ..

4000 watts of raw and pulsating power of absolute rock music blasting out of the speakers ..
loud and sonorous ….

we were testing our ear’s high decibel intensity withstanding capability …
and the old walls of our rooms were also withstanding this blast ..

Our heart did not skip even a single beat .. we could feel and hear every beat ..
such was the situation here ..
We eulogised every rock star’s dream ..

“Hold up… hold on… don’t be scared
You’ll never change what’s been and gone
May your smile… Shine on… Don’t be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.

‘coz all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you’ll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up… Come on… why you scared
You’ll never change what been and gone “

The rock music went on ..non stop ..

Sometime later Aditya and Rajesh too joined in for the show ..
Even Siddharth and Shridhar joined in …

The numbers were just flowing in as per requests …
Nothing else matters, Du Hast, I stand Alone, Smack my Bitch up, Sepultura, Metallica, Testament, System of a Down , Marylin Manson and much more queued up to make us go wild ..

The real passion of having a rock night came true today …

By now many were high on their heels now …

… and the kick got stronger and stronger ..
Nagraj and Abhi were seeping in dry and full …
Achal was in his usual mood of full masti ..

Naveen was swaying here and there aand laughing at me …
and i was teasing him loudly .. ” nonya ” ..

Many of them were now tight …
who were in their senses earlier ,

And when Rajesh and adi came .. they gave to Nagraj saying it was water …
but he couldn’t even recognise the big thick bottle ‘coz he was obviously not in his senses ..
and he drank it like anyone would drink water ..

one characteristic of vodka , i heard from my friends is that when it is going in we can feel it’s extreme dryness going down the throat ..
and that is what Nagraj felt as he drank …

Nonya was watching us and laying down till now .. he also got up to join the dance ..

Almost everyone was enjoying this thunder of rock music here ..
our ears and head were standing the test of this extravaganza ..

I was the only person in his full senses and capabilities here ..others were atleast a bit high ..

But one passsion which I shared with others was ..
THE ROCK MUSIC IN IT’S ABSLOUTE FORM …

PCC GS — Rahul ,
PCC UR — Rishikesh, our close friends also visited here ..
chetan(bouncer hehe ) and omkar too chipped in for some masti ..

The floor was completely occupied by now ..
head banging in complete tandem….
the hooplah here was enough to keep your head banging for hours ..
in tune or without tune …
but we made sure the whole grey matter in was churned in every direction ..up and down ..left and right ..

AGONY, DESPAIR,

ENDLESS PAIN ,

ECSTASY,

HAPPINESS,

SADNESS,

DESIRE ,

ANGER ….
all these emotional byproducts were getting mixed , intertwined, churned, immersed , soaked …..

with the beats and rock music flowing outta here ..
you name it … it was all felt here on this night today ..

the pain, misery i felt here ..

I was dragged by the force of some inner tide ….
I wonder why ???

for once i thought this world is not what it seems to be …
it is much more ..
and only when we experience every fall … shall we rise …

sorry for this philosophical note in between … i couldn’t stop myself ..

our senses were appealed in every tune that was played …
sometimes inbetween trance followed to slow the head banging ..

We were living the other side of student life what we even share with the IIT’s and IIM”s …

All limits, all barriers, all damned fucking defenses had to be broken … but the right chord was never striked upon ..
instead it was all sheer frustration of engineering that was flowing out as lava …

Wild locks of hair on my head ..
sometimes followed the movement of my head ..
sometimes they just did their own thing ..

abhi and rajesh had enough wild locks to accompany me ..

We were free radicals tonight .. excited free atoms ..wandering off the orbit ..
just everybody was swaying along in their own uncaring , damned way ..

With only one hop last year and uncertanity this year too ..
we were craving for a hop ..
our seniors enjoyed a hop every week ..
the ENGICO tradition is slowly fading away ..
so sad ..

common guys and gals let’s not let it ground upon ..

and we are going to pass out this year ..
atleast let’s make the last year of engineering memorable friends ..
we shall regret this forever if not …

“Stand up, be bold , take the responsibility on your shoulders … “
well let me not start a speech here .. shall cut short ..it’s for you to decide anyway …

save me …
i dont fag .. nor am i into intoxication in any form ..

PURE , UNDILUTED MUSIC is my addiction ….that’s it ..

Today the rebellion was against our body and mind ..
let it experience every pain ..
physical, metaphysical and mental ..

This was one of the freakest possible rock night i witnessed here ..

If you all are feeling jealous … i can’t help ..
you must ask for it or snatch the oppurtunity away ..
it’s your own right i feel …

the blast was still in full swing ..
it went on till 4.15 am in the morning ..
hours of desperation drove enough sleep in our eyes ..

Abhi and myself walked to my room to catch a nap ,,

and i’ll tell you something ,,abhi would shout at me for saying this but let me let it out here ,,

he was so scared to walk alone ,,

actually our hostel does not have any lights ,, and it’s absolutely pitch dark here ,,

he was walking in front of me ,, and then he said to me ” Blair Witch is waiting for me ”

i couldn’t stop laughing at him ,,

hmmm

let me explain ,, we watched the movie ” THE BLAIR WITCH PROJECT ” in these vacations and some of the scary scenes from this movie remain etched in his memory ,,,

hence the scare ,, hehe haha haaaaa ,,,

We just slept wherever we found an empty place ..
My thoughts were playing spoilsport again …
i couldn’t sleep for a long time …
i dont know when i slept .. just that we got up in the morning around 11 am ..

then in the traditional ENGICO way went to back zopdi and had limbu soda …

Eagerly awaiting the next such experience …